30's...

Making it to your 30's in age is such a pivotal point in life in my opinion!

Your 30's is what I like to call your "Ah ha..." decade because you begin to realize who you are... your own person!

You begin to become MORE cognizant of what you like and don't like, what you will tolerate and what you will NOT tolerate, who to love and who NOT to love, who to trust and who NOT to trust, and who to be and who NOT to be...just a plethora of "Ah ha..." moments reveal themselves to you in your 30's if and only if your paying attention and open to be taught.

It's not to say you may not be wise beyond your years and/or learned valued lessons in prior or latter years but I'm finding for myself that in my 30's a lot of things begin to make sense and gel together for my good.

I've learned in my 30's situations, people, places and things only have power or authority over me only if I allow them too!

Therefore being in the "know" or what I like to call having an "Ah ha..." moment of my authority I learned not too give my power away easily if at all as I may have done in the past.

There is certainly something to be said when you can take notice of your own growth let a lone the people around you.

Although "Ah ha..." moments aren't restricted to a specific age or time it just appears for me and other people I converse with that the 30's is either where or becomes a decade of reflection, growth and empowerment!

What's MORE beautiful then coming into your own existence, being comfortable and secure in who you are?

The 30's for me is the decade of security and confidence in the person I see in the mirror every waking morning!

Until Next Time,
Tru Sinceer

I've decided...

I've decided to keep looking forward and no longer driving forward looking thru my rear-view mirror!

Not that I have forgotten or will forget the pitfalls, intentional afflicted wrong done to me or scars I bare but I choose to become successful by creating a firm foundation from the bricks that have been thrown at me!

I've decided although I've been robbed of my innocence, robbed of my securities, robbed of my direction, robbed of my hope, robbed of my aspirations...I was never robbed of my continued ability to dream and the ability of application!

I've decided from this moment forward that whatever enters into my heart, mind and dreams that I dare to dream that I can apply myself and manifest it into my reality~

I've decided who in the fuck do you think you are and/or where to rob me naked?

You robbed in such a way legal justice could never be served...in my favor!

So I've decided not to follow-up on pressing charges because "karma justice" is one form of justice that's issued with a "life-sentence" with no probation...as long as you never right your wrong!

You see I decided that regardless of how you planned AND executed my demise you will NEVER win simply because I've decided NOT to let you win...

You're nothing more then some pollutant shit who lingered in MY air because I never had the courage to flush you out of my system...but I've decided your black cloud has hung over me long enough!

I've decided to embrace the pain vs. running from it...again time certainly heals all wounds...

I've also decided that it's all in what you do...

Therefore, I've decided you need to know it's not that you "walked" away but HOW you walked away~

I believe you would've loved nothing more for me to fail and come crawling back looking to you as you where my God...but your not my God so to you I will NEVER bow...

Although I'm half of your DNA...I feel the complete opposite and was made to live out an episode of the Maury show and constantly hear your mistress say too me "He is NOT your Father!"...not directly of course but VERY indirectly!

I've decided this is what has been eating away at my core and it's time I release these toxins...

So while you've decided to live your life as if I don't exist I've decided to acknowledge you and smile so you know that I DECIDED you don't have any reign over me!

That's what I've decided...

Until Next Time,
Tru Sinceer

Night Recap...

Good Morning All,

Last night I had a wonderful and refreshing evening with a couple of friends.

We had dinner at "J. Alexander's"...although my cocktail was a little WEAK the meal and the evening wasn't.

One of my good friends is home for two weeks. He's four months into his six month deployment and his ship returned for a short spell so we decided to do dinner and have a relaxing evening to catch up!

The most HILARIOUS thing about my friend is seeing him laugh...lol...MOST people have a boisterous laugh when they laugh but not him. My friend will give you a SLIGHT chuckle and then the next thing you know he's crying on you...WTH?!?!?!? lol....in lieu of a loud laugh he cries ...lol...it's so funny!!

My other friend is the complete opposite...she's BOISTEROUS with her laugh and it's so contagious too, she bust out in a laugh and the next thing you know you're laughing and may NOT know what you're laughing at but it all good!

It's such a blessing to be in and around GOOD people and GOOD company...these days those type of people are hard to come by!

I'm at work T-I-RED and ready to take a nap because I stayed out TTTTOOOOO late last night but I'm HERE at work and accounted for...so that's something to be said because I sssooo wanted to "call-in" but I pressed my way and came on in to work!!

I wish you all the BEST, hope you're enjoying your day, and maximizing the short time we have here on earth!

Until Next Time,
Tru Sinceer

This Space...

Hello blogger's and readers alike!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is one my frustrated and complicated mind war days because of this space I'm in and occupying!

I'm in a space I don't want to be in...I do not like my distant but yet close enough surroundings and feel like there is something that has me bound from really walking out on faith and walking away from it all and starting a new!!

But the weird part of it all in my frustration I YET have this HUGE level of optimism that at the end of the day everything is going to turn out alright and I'll be abundantly blessed and reap my harvest...

I guess it's between the "now" and the "pending" where I'm trying to find my space just to catch my breathe too inhale and exhale in a normal rhythm vs. in an inconsistent pattern and not knowing when it's going to slow down or speed up again beyond my control...

I pray hard, write more, and listen twice as much then I EVER have...maybe that's it....maybe because I'm becoming more cognizant of my surroundings and positioning...this space and realizing it's not where I want to be and/or end up!

Life certainly doesn't come with a map and it's hard as hell to recover when you gone off road into desolated terrain but what doesn't kill you certainly makes you stronger!

I'm determined to figure things out for the good, bad and in between to elevate myself from this space!

Until Next Time,
Tru Sinceer

My Peoples...

My peoples when are we going to rise above what we can't see?

My peoples how many more senseless deaths of brutality?

My peoples how many more times are we going to kick each other while we're already down?

My peoples stopping blaming everyone but ourselves for holding you down...

My peoples learn "when" and "when NOT too"...

My peoples adapt the reality that it's not all about you but about us, them AND you...

Embrace the diversity and see its beauty my peoples

My peoples agree to disagree respectfully, lovingly and peacefully

My peoples, my peoples...WAKE UP!

Until Next Time,
Tru Sinceer

Look At The Moon...

Look at the moon that shines in the midnight

Look at the moon reflection as it glisten upon the sea

Look at the moon in it's quarter, half or full

Look at the moon and know that you're soon...

Soon to shine in your midnight situations

Soon to bare reflections of your own

Soon to be visually present regardless if you're somewhat, partially or fully there

Look at the moon and see your parallels

Look at the moon and know you're free to sail...

Just look at the moon

Until next time,
Tru Sinceer

It's ALL in what you do...

It's all in what you do between your smiles and your frowns to decipher the size of your crown

It's all in what you do between your tears of joy and your tears of pain to help you weather the rain

It's all in what you do between the good and the bad to overcome a temporary sad

It's all in what you do between learning and knowing that keeps you glowing

It's all in what you do between being alone and feeling lonely wishing you wasn't the only...

The only one feeling abandon and alone

The only one feeling as if you're in isolation from society

You sit on the sidelines as the race of life passes you by

Like a child trying to jump double dutch, you're rocking back and forth trying to find the rhythm to jump in...

Each time you jump in the rhythm breaks and so do you...

But ALWAYS remember...

It's all in what you do...

Do you remain rhythm less or do learn to dance and dance the good dance?

Do you remain broken or do you mend the broken pieces and make art?

Do you laugh until it hurts or do you hurt until they laugh?

It's all in what you do...

The train might have left the station but the station hasn't left...

Stand still if you must because there's another train coming...

It's all in what you do that deciphers the manifestation of a better you!

Until Next Time,
Tru Sinceer

The FIRST and the LAST time...

Hello blog world and readers!!!

This weekend I ventured off to ATL to pay homage to headquarters and hang with my best friend who lives there and another good friend that was in ATL as well.

What started off to be such a pleasant trip ended up in the pits and turned into a "cold war" between myself and the person I allowed to ride with me on my excursion to ATL!!

I MUST admit I didn't take the advise of my friend Trent Jackson..."Travel light, you'll travel far!"

Normally when I go out of town I usually travel alone ESPECIALLY on weekend excursion because they're is typical a lot I want to do in so little time and having an "entourage" can sometimes cause conflict and tension provided we're all not on the SAME sheet of music.

So against my BETTER judgment I allowed this person to travel with me...she has always asked to venture off with me for years and we've never gone out of town but this time I said "Ok that's what's up!" and let her travel with me...

Turn around THREE times and touch your NEIGHBOR and say MISTAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...BUMP THE BRAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This was the FIRST and LAST time I will EVER go out of town with THIS particular person...it was a lesson learned!!

Long story short, either one of us didn't want to drive our cars therefore we agreed to rent a car and go half...she proceeded to tell me she had a "hook-up" at the rental place and can get the car for a fairly cheaper rate. So I was like cool!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...spin THREE times again and say MISTAKE #2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was under the impression she was going to get the rate but the car was going to be in MY name since I was already driving and SHE was "tagging along"...but unknown to me when we got to the rental place she had the car reserved in her name ONLY!!! So you know it was an issue when she tried to tell me I can not drive the car because it's in HER NAME ONLY!!! WTF?!??!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR....spin THREE times and say MISTAKE #3!!!!!!

So to keep the peace I laughed it off and was like WHATEVER...especially if you looking for ME to pay HALF!!!

However, needless to say she dictated the ENTIRE 36 hours of us being in Atlanta and was very inconsiderate! I'm the type of person when I get extremely heated I get EXTREMELY quiet because if I speak then I'm liable to say something and take myself to a place I may not be able to return from so I choose my battles wisely!!

Although I have not addressed it with this chick as of yet...please trust that I will and I ASSURE you that was the FIRST and LAST time she will EVER give me her ass to kiss!!!

I don't fair well and/or tolerate inconsistent people and/or personalities ESPECIALLY people with "hidden" agenda's...

There was a lot more that transpired that turned me OFF about this person but I'm choosing to keep it light and give the edited story...

"WHEN PEOPLE SHOW YOU WHO THEY ARE...BELIEVE THEM!"

Until Next Time,
Tru Sinceer